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In Faith, Hope, Love on November 19, 2011 at 2:54 am

11/19 (Early in the AM or Late at night)

Listening to Anthony Evans’ new album “Home” and my heart ♥ has been moved…I’ve been humbled and encouraged by the lyrics of these songs.

One song, Fighting for Me….It convicted me. Because it’s the same thing I’ve struggled with over and over again. I try to clean up…dust myself off…keep up the appearance like “I got it”. But God resists the proud and gives grace to the humble, right? (James 4:6; 1 Peter 5:5). We (okay, I can say that “I”) have this hold up of trying to be good enough. We tend to not understand what it means to “come as you are”…or why the Old Testament pointed to the need for Jesus because the sacrifices were only temporary and never brought perfection  (Romans 8:3; Hebrews 7:11-28 . We can’t do it on our own…if we really could clean ourselves up, change our own hearts, make ourselves good…then there would be no need for Christ. Why would you need a savior if you were already your own savior? The truth is, try as we might, we can’t change ourselves completely and we can’t bring ourselves to perfection.  What I continue to learn is I am who I am right now. That doesn’t mean that I will be this way forever…What it means is that I have to know where I am at, but look to Christ to bring about the change to be more like Him…and be expecting it all the time!

The other point that stands out about this song is how strong our Father is. All the while in “my” struggle to try to show how much control I have over the situation..HE is fighting for me. How awesome is that?? He knows me so well…that he is fighting FOR ME. Funny how God knows your heart…even the intentions of your heart (whether evil or good) and shows you what is really in it. The Lord knows me better than I know myself. (READ: Psalm 139).

So what am I hearing? The Lord speaking to my heart…telling me let go of the stubborn pride because deep down I know that “I don’t have it”…that I need Him….I need my Rock, my Buckler, my Shield, my very present help in a time of trouble. I hear Him tell me that I have to let go and let Him have it…Surrender completely and let Him have all of me. I have to trust…..

 I will love thee, O LORD, my strength. The LORD is my rock, and my fortress, and my deliverer; my God, my strength, in whom I will trust; my buckler, and the horn of my salvation, and my high tower. (Psalm 18:1-2)

O LORD, thou hast searched me, and known me. (Psalm 139:1)

How precious also are thy thoughts unto me, O God! how great is the sum of them! (Psalm 139: 17)

 Search me, O God, and know my heart: try me, and know my thoughts: And see if there be any wicked way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting (Psalm 139:23-24)